Got a surprise update from an ex-JC classmate today. She became a single mum in September to a baby boy! I am totally shocked! The last time I met her was in February during Chinese New Year at my house and she didn't say anything then! Her baby's father is a married man, she stated simply in her mail and made me terribly curious for the rest of the information that suppose to come with it. I have to find out more! What kind of arrangements did she make with the baby's father? Is he in the know or she's doing it all by herself? I have so many questions! Not because I am being busy-body but I really care for her to want to know more details.
Whatever it is, I think she's has done the right thing and I am happy for her. Having a baby is about the most happy thing that can happen to a woman, especially wonderful if she has it with a loving husband but even without, the feeling of total love for another human being will more than compensate for it. I am beginning to feel a little envious of her now as I wish the 2 children that I have can be mine totally and not have to share with their father...the man who does not pay for the children's maintenance but claim 50% ownership. Isn't it unfair to me? Well, no point whining about it now, I have been letting him off the hook for the sake of the children all these years. And thank God I am making enough money for them. Just hope that the economic crisis won't affect my job...
If all things go as planned, hubby and I should be going back to Singapore for good next year and then we will plan to have a baby together. I am looking forward to being mum again...unbelievable but I am... I can still remember so vividly when I first gave birth to N 13 years ago...it was the most amazing feeling. I didn't know real love until that day; I didn't know what can be so precious to me until N came into my life; she was the most beautiful baby that I have ever seen and I am so overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions that I thought I could faint. It is wonderful being mum, 1st time, 2nd time, anytime. I can't wait to be mum again!