Life is boring?

I was chatting with an ex-colleague on the phone the other day and apparently, she is very happy with her life right now after being retrenched from my company. I had worried slightly for her as I know that she won't be able to get another job paying her the same anywhere else...How wrong was I!

Post-work, she stayed at home slightly less than 3 months to take care of her daughter and husband. Then she enrolled herself in some make-up lessons and she's since been doing bridal makeup and hairdo! She will also be enrolling herself for a course on wedding planning and she is intending to make a career out of it. She told me that for the 1st time in her life, she realized that she has a dream and it feels really good. I am happy for her.

The conversation set me thinking..."what am I doing here in HK?", "is this job what I really want to do?", "do I have a dream?"...The answers to them are "for the money", "no" and "no". How sad. But I have to admit, I have lost my dream ever since I quit the tour business and started working for others. I have been working day in day out, trying to do what is expected of me and getting paid at the end of every month. I have worked for this present company for the past 8 years and so far the only job satisfaction I got from this job was being able to attain a position where no Asian female has ever attained in the organisation. But so what? What's the point? Honestly, I really don't know...

My latest passion at the moment is my 2 toy poodle pups. I am thinking of having a third one...a white toy poodle maybe...am I crazy?

The Index is climbing...not the stock market

On a good day, this is the view from my bedroom window...and I emphasize a good day as this kind of days are hard to come by especially in recent years Hong Kong. The pollution is getting from bad to worse and today it was recorded way over 400 on the pollution index in all parts of Hong Kong! No wonder I am having swollen and teary eyes! Damn!

Was chatting with an old school friend who have moved back to Singapore 2 years ago after staying in Hong Kong for the past 12 years. Apparently, the pollution is one of the many reasons that have driven her and her boyfriend away from Hong Kong. They used to stay on a house boat anchored at the marine club in Hong Kong island, the southernmost part. It's an area that I assume would be least affected by the pollution, unlike the rest of the areas in Kowloon...

What's the point of having full seaview when most of the times, I cannot see much of the sea anyway? Maybe it's time to move again...

"Sad to belong"

Was listening to this song on the way to work this morning and I think that it's really quite a stupid song. The melody is good though...just that the lyrics is stupid. It goes "It's sad to belong to someone else, when the right one comes along...." So, don't belong to anyone forever then!

How do we know that the one we are together with is the right one or not? I asked my hubby and he said that it's really a tough question as he thinks that one will never know for sure. It may feels right but is it perfect? Hmm... I believe that there will always be someone that may seem better or more right than the present one if you insist to continue looking around. But the rule of the game of love does not allow one to keep trying out new loves and then come back to the old/present one when the new ones are not "right". So, like the song, it's really sad to belong to someone else...

There was a documentary by TVB a couple of weeks ago about single women over 30s. These women are referred to as "败犬" (losers) or "熟女" (mature women). It documented their frustrations about not being able to get hooked and some of them admitted that it may be their own fault. Some of them were expecting too much from their past relationships and had thus driven their men out; some were financially too strong for their men to handle; and another had a cheating husband whom she could not forgive...All sad realities of being a modern woman in this modern world.
I had my fair share of all the above frustrations when I was much younger...glad I do not now.

A good day

Today is one of those rare days where everything feels good from the moment I woke up. First of all, I finally woke up without aches and pain all over my body, unlike the past 10 days when I had symptoms of flu and rheumatism add together...sore throat, running nose, teary eyes, aches and pain in all the joints of the body. Today I felt good, no aches and my skin felt much moisturised after a night of Laneige's Water Sleeping Pack, even my hair seemed to fall into place nicer! The traffic was exceptionally smooth too, didn't meet any traffic lights until the very last one and we made it to work 4 minutes earlier than usual. And I received a call from Shanghai that really made my day. It was J and he thanked me for helping him get his request for additional manpower and equipment approved by HQ. I am sure glad that I was of help. Feels good that HQ actually asked for my opinion and respected it when I gave it.

Come to think of it, the good feeling that I am having now actually started from last evening when I had a meeting with the rest of the Japanese managers and head of departments regarding the appraisal reviews of our staff. I was as usual the only female and non-Japanese head of department and it makes me feel good every time. I recommended 5 of my staff for promotions and they all respected my decision with no challenge at all which was really rare. Some of the other guys who had given a grades for their staff were openly told off which was actually quite embarrassing...

Oh I treasure days like this ~ makes waking early up and coming to work feels worthwhile. :)