Random thoughts

The haze is back and I am having running nose and watery eyes again...or have I caught a cold? I really can't tell the difference but I am feeling terrible...Baby J is still waking up in the middle of the night (around 2am~3am) for feeds and I don't have enough breast milk to fill him up, so hubby has to wake up to make formula milk for him. After that baby J usually sleeps until 8am or 9am before fully waking up to begin his day. By that time, I will be at work but grandpa and grandma will be home attending to him and doting on him. Relocating back to Singapore for baby J is a good decision, no doubt about it. I just need to take control of my desires and ego. Be humble, be contented.

Sometimes, I wonder to myself if coming back to Singapore and staying with our extended family members is a good idea. I wonder how will it be like when it's just hubby, me and baby J. My friend V who is living in Germany with her hubby and 2 kids were telling me that she cannot imagine relocating back to Singapore where they will not be able to afford a big house like the one they are living in and the lifestyle that they are enjoying in Germany. I cannot imagine. Houses in Singapore are getting too expensive...We would have to sell off both our private apartments in exchange for 1 house and still have to deal with the fact that we will be staying further away from the city. But then again, how big is Singapore anyway? How far is far? I bet my friend V and her family have to deal with travelling further distances on a daily basis. And then, we have to convince my MIL to move, which is the most difficult task as she thinks that the apartment that we are living in has the best feng shui and all...Unlike most couples, we do not have the final say as to whether we move or not...Anyway, getting a house is not top priority for us at the moment, hubby getting a job to keep him occupied and sane is...So I am praying hard that he will get an offer soon.