@ 35 weeks

I am getting restless now...just 3 to 4 more weeks to go but I am getting too big for a comfortable sleep every night and the baby's movements are getting more painful for me as well. I am eager to get over with it but at the same time, I am apprehensive about having another baby to take care of...my MIL is going to be the main care-taker for this baby when I go back to work but I am not sure if I am totally comfortable with that. I am regretful for having my mum take care of my other older children, I wish I had spent more time with them when they were young and I am very sorry for not being there for them most of the time for the past 5.5 years when I was working in HK. I hope that I won't regret again this time!

Baby is doing fine in my womb, his head is big for his gestational age and yet his body is not big and his legs are not long too...I think it's in the genes of his daddy. Anyway, I think the earliest that I am going to deliver this baby will be 5th March, 11 days earlier than the calculated due date for him. I may either induce birth or I may just wait for it to happen, which ever way, I am thinking if I need to have epidural this time...I am not young anymore, I wonder if I can take the pain as well as I had the last 2 times when I was less than 30 years old. The needle for epidural is very scary and I really hope that there are other alternatives...something that doesn't involve needles will be best. Most of my friends have epidurals during their labour and they said it was a blessing...I might as well try it this time?

Things at work is boring without the travelling and I am still struggling to set targets for my unit and deciding on the jobscope for my assistant. My boss has more or less agreed to me having an assistant, especially during my maternity leave but I don't know what kind of jobscope to give him and what targets! I am struggling with my own jobscope as I don't have a clear direction from my boss...*sigh*. Maybe own time own target is good, but it will definitely be helpful if I can have some guidance. Anyway, I really got to seriously think about it soon...