2012 got off on a rather good note for us, I think. Hubby will get his confirmation plus promotion this month and we are hoping that he will get a good package since he will be holding dual roles. My dream of retiring in 10~15 years may really come true sooner than I think? But what shall I do if I retire? I don't really know. Who knows what holds for us in the future anyway? I am happy for hubby and for what I have right now. Sometimes I get a little paranoid though...afraid that whatever I have now will be taken away from me...afraid that I can't be that lucky, afraid that I may use up my luck soon...Can luck be used up? It's crazy, I know...It's this fear that stopped me from buying that brand new BMW 520i and the Chanel handbag that I have been eyeing...Maybe I am just being rational, maybe it's just that I don't need another car yet and I definitely don't need a Chanel handbag. I am happy with a Prada.
Nevertheless, we will be looking for another car to replace our Mazda 3 soon as it is already coming to 8 years old this August. The 6th generation BMW 3 series will be launching in Singapore in February and we like the sport line version we saw on YouTube and if the price is right, we might get it? Another option for us is to get another pre-owned BMW, maybe a X5 or something, if the promotion coming this weekend is good. And that salesman from Audi has been contacting me since I tested the A6...we are spoilt on choices and the COE is coming down! Oh well...no hurry.
I will turn 41 this month and it's kind of scary...I remember I used to think that 40 something is old...Gosh! If I live to 80 years old which is approximately the average life span of women nowadays, I have already used up 50% of my time! I really have to plan well for the rest of my life and don't waste it anymore! Not that I have wasted my life so far, I think I have accomplished quite a lot considering that I already have 3 kids, 2 degrees and a well-paying job. The job part can improve though...I feel that I am rotting in my job...there is no challenge and nothing new to learn...I am not in top management and I don't get a chance to make any kind of decisions...Whatever I studied will only go to waste here in this job. *SIGH*
Hubby will be embarking into his career in his new roles, N will be attending Poly, D in Secondary 2 and baby J will turn 1. It will be an important year for all of them. Maybe I should just retreat into the background and play a supportive role to all of them instead. I don't need to embark on a new career, I don't need to be doing anything challenging, I am a wife and a mother, my hubby and my children should be the main focus of my life right now, not my job.
So for 2012, my resolution is to be a better wife and mother, to spend more time enjoying life with my family in various ways that we all enjoy.
