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Front-page news this monring: "ACID SLAP IN THE FACE"! Yes, there was another acid attack in Mongkok yesterday...the 2nd in a month and to think that we were all there at Mongkok just Sunday afternoon! Surveillance cameras have been installed and switched on hours before the attack but so what? The culprit(s) is obviously challenging the Hong Kong police. "Catch me if you can!" Seriously, this must have been the 3rd or 4th acid attacks since we have been here?

A male teacher has been procecuted for having sex with his student and she was only 12 years old! Teenage girls age 14/15 are attempting to rob taxi drivers with knives. Another teenage girl was giving oral sex services on public bus for money to buy bag! School children taking drugs...What kind of a world is this!?

Called N last night around 9pm and she was still on a bus going home from her dance practice. She is having 2 dance parctices everyday at school. One session in the morning for the Asian Youth Games' performance and another session in the afternoon from 4pm~7pm for the school's musical. Looks like she's working really hard and we will all be there for her musical performance in July. It will be held at the Jubilee Hall at Raffles Hotel and I am so looking forward to it! I miss her.

Learning to accept disppoinments...

My eyes are so swollen...I look like a goldfish today...I know shouldn't have cried so hard before I went to sleep last night, but I just couldn't control myself. I was overwhelmed by emotions, I miss my children, I am disappointed with daughter N, and then I started to self-blame...
Disappointment came from daughter N, she was totally nonchalant about my returning home for the weekend, she lost her report book but she didn't give a damn about it, she was constantly SMS-ing her friends,...she has become one of the typical terrible teenager. She has become a stranger to me...not my darling little girl anymore. Maybe it's because I am not around enough to be able to get used to her change, her change might have been gradual but to me, it came as a shock. I started to think if it was all due to my fault and I started to be critical to myself. Maybe it was the broken marriage, maybe it was the fact that I am working here in HK, maybe...there're just too many "maybe".
Then I read gweipo's blog about Two Bad Bricks this morning...I really shouldn't focus too much on N's bad points, I shouldn't put my expectations too high and most importantly, I should not be too critical about myself. There are so many things that I have done RIGHT!